Happy Mothers Day! Instead ??

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Many, like myself, sometimes feel the push and pull of Mothers Day as a bit of a struggle. Do we pay homage to a mother we feel neglected her obligation to protect us? Many survivors have stopped talking to their mothers out of self preservation because the relationship continues to be painful, unhealthy and toxic. The card companies make a great deal of money by making us feel guilty for not doing enough.

Celebrate instead that you are a mother to your children. Celebrate the times you did the best you could. Celebrate the times you cried with pride at who they have become and who you see them becoming. Celebrate your love as a mother who is doing or has done the best you could. I am going to go buy myself a muffin and a latte! Happy Mothers Day to me and you!

(H) HANG (O) ON (P) PAIN (E) ENDS HOPE!

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Hope and the end of your torment… This is indeed the most difficult concept for survivors to achieve. Once you find that hope and you can recognize it you are well on the way. It won’t happen over night, but it will. When I was 30 I thought my life was over. By the time I was 33 I was exhausted by my own life and the constant struggle to be “normal.” What a word. N*O*R*M*A*L. If the statistics tell us anything it is that there really is no such thing. We are indeed normal in our anger and outrage at what happened in the past. Of course we are angry. THAT is a “normal” reaction to a terrible event! Own that! Feel it! Then, when you are done let it go. Why? Because it is not productive for you to hold onto. That anger will destroy you and hold you prisoner. So take out, look at it, bet it to death somehow if you need to, more than once even, but then… send it out into the universe, to your higher power, whoever or whatever you might perceive that to be. Your pain will go with it…

Keep going!

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Pen Relief has gone from strength to strength over the last few weeks and many of you have written, in various styles, and we thank you for that. We also thank those of you who have written but have not wanted to publish them. The aim is to get it off your chest and many of you have achieved this by writing in to Pen Relief so keep doing it. You can write about any issue to penrelief@gmail.com.

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Am going to try my best, to get it off my chest

Pen Relief, I will share my grief

And let you do the rest.

OCD is killing me, depression gets me down

Although I try to smile a bit, I end up with a frown.

My partner is in denial, so I’m sentenced without a trial

The judge says it will be grand, I say its out of hand.

No one listens to what I say

They hope tomorrow is a brighter day.

As bright as it gets, everyone forgets, that I wear a frown

I take all advice and so now I write it down.

The cures not there, the pain still aches

My family say “For Gods sakes”.

She says “ The problem is all inside your head”

I say “ No kidding, can I hear something else instead”.

I will write some more, it’s not a…

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Survivors! On May 1!

Wednesday
9:00am until 10:00am

I am so humbled to be interviewed on my book, my story and of my story is in many ways yours. I hope you respond, call in write in to the station letting them know how very important this conversation is. IF we can talk about Child Abuse, Child Rape, we can stop it. It has to begin somewhere! Let it begin with you and with me!

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Live Call-In show: Jefferson Public Radio (NPR) Over 1 million listeners! What an Opportunity for SURVIVORS to be heard! Please share even if you are not going! Show the media that you do care about Child Abuse Issues by sharing and inviting you friends!

To listen on your Media device, Follow the link and on the left side Click on Listen live…. May 1, 9AM Pacific Time Geoffrey Riley Host/Producer Interview w/ Annie O’Sullivan, Author, Can you Hear Me Now?

or…. on your radio:

KSJK AM 1230
Talent
KAGI AM 930
Grants Pass
KTBR AM 950
Roseburg
KRVM AM 1280
Eugene
KSYC AM 1490
Yreka
KMJC AM 620
Mt. Shasta
KPMO AM 1300
Mendocino
KJPR AM 1330
Redding
KNHM FM 91.5 FM
Bayside/Eureka

I will be speaking in Eureka Calif With Shattering the Silence Tour! Hope to see you there

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Thursday
10:00am

Acquatic Center, 921 Waterfront Drive, Eureka, CA (Room 203)

Annie O’Sullivan, Author, Speaker, BlogTalk host, Can You Hear Me Now is coming home to talk
Kelly Behr, Mountain Goddess Unplugged
Rebecca Kimbel/Author/Speaker/T.V. and Radio Host
Connie Lee/FACSAFoundation.org]

FACSA Foundation (Family and Friends Fighting Against Child Sexual Assault) is hosting the Shattering The Silence Tour and Documentary Project filming a documentary on survivors stories from across the nation, conducting research on how child sexual assault is affecting our local communities, and hosting free public education prevention conferences across the nation, on prevention of child sexual assault and human trafficking. Please Share this link, We would like to reach as many people as possible. Thank you!

Thank you!

I was profoundly reminded this weekend of the importance of sharing your story, trials, efforts, wins and even those inevitable steps backwards in your healing journey… there are adults who suffer, who will listen to you and drink in your words like water in the desert. They need to know there is a way and that they too can find peace. They need to know they are not alone. Telling your story encourages others. Its a hand out through the fire to help them cross to safety. They are starved for information they don’t know they need and they don’t know how to ask for. They need you. Its a profound honor to have this page and all of you here working toward that end. XOXO Annie