(H) HANG (O) ON (P) PAIN (E) ENDS HOPE!

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Hope and the end of your torment… This is indeed the most difficult concept for survivors to achieve. Once you find that hope and you can recognize it you are well on the way. It won’t happen over night, but it will. When I was 30 I thought my life was over. By the time I was 33 I was exhausted by my own life and the constant struggle to be “normal.” What a word. N*O*R*M*A*L. If the statistics tell us anything it is that there really is no such thing. We are indeed normal in our anger and outrage at what happened in the past. Of course we are angry. THAT is a “normal” reaction to a terrible event! Own that! Feel it! Then, when you are done let it go. Why? Because it is not productive for you to hold onto. That anger will destroy you and hold you prisoner. So take out, look at it, bet it to death somehow if you need to, more than once even, but then… send it out into the universe, to your higher power, whoever or whatever you might perceive that to be. Your pain will go with it…

Survivors! On May 1!

Wednesday
9:00am until 10:00am

I am so humbled to be interviewed on my book, my story and of my story is in many ways yours. I hope you respond, call in write in to the station letting them know how very important this conversation is. IF we can talk about Child Abuse, Child Rape, we can stop it. It has to begin somewhere! Let it begin with you and with me!

http://www.ijpr.org/onlineaudio2.asp?SectionID=1012&programId=11

Live Call-In show: Jefferson Public Radio (NPR) Over 1 million listeners! What an Opportunity for SURVIVORS to be heard! Please share even if you are not going! Show the media that you do care about Child Abuse Issues by sharing and inviting you friends!

To listen on your Media device, Follow the link and on the left side Click on Listen live…. May 1, 9AM Pacific Time Geoffrey Riley Host/Producer Interview w/ Annie O’Sullivan, Author, Can you Hear Me Now?

or…. on your radio:

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Grants Pass
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Mendocino
KJPR AM 1330
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Bayside/Eureka

WHERE IS THE PROOF?

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I often time will talk with someone online that is is crisis while holding onto hope that they will get in to see a professional before doing something terribly destructive to themselves.

I was recently speaking with a woman who spent the evening before contemplating driving her vehicle off a bridge into the ocean. I ask why? Because there is too much pain! and she cries.

Her family is in denial that a relative could possibly have done what she accused him of. She has physical, deforming damage that a doctor has verified and still they call her a terrible terrible person and a liar.

The same woman has a boyfriend who has beaten her for the last three years. I ask, Why do you stay? She says, Because it is all I deserve, no one else loves me.

No one loves me.
I don’t deserve it.
I hate my life.
Everyone is mad at me.
I’m Stupid, clumsey, fat, ugly, too skinny, too________ fill in the adjective here with any negative you can come up with and a survivor has thought it.

It is the child’s thoughts that are bubbling to the surface not the adults and it is outrageously confusing. All those feelings and thoughts are causing the pain to return from the past. It isn’t based in life today, but we can’t separate it without some help.

I was reminded of the most important 4 words my counselor gave me to work these emotions out. WHERE IS THE PROOF?

Ahhhh gotcha didn’t I? The question is not where is the proof of your accusation, you know what happened to you!

The question is, Where is the proof that you are stupid? Where is the proof that you are undeserving? Where is the proof that no one loves you? is mad at you? etc…

There is no proof of any of those things… You are not alone and there is proof of that as well. ~~ Annie