Profoundly simple and profoundly difficult. Is it really just an idle thought on a Sunday night? No! Not at all!
Consider this thought from Andrew Carnegie:
Any idea that is held in the mind, that is either feared, or revered, will begin at once to clothe itself in the most conveinient and appropriate form available….
Key words are feared and revered. Why are both words key to us as survivors? As children we feared and indeed revered our abuser(s) They shaped our beliefs about ourselves. They controlled our belief of ourselves and to survive we clothed ourselves in the most conveinient and appropriate form available. We also did it out of innocence.
What do you believe today?
It’s good to be back! Annie
I hear so often from survivors, and I was once guilty myself, “I am not who I am supposed to be!” Who do you think that was? Whats wrong with who you are now?
I myself was brought up short with that question when I was lamenting to a counselor, “Look at my life! It’s ruined!”
Who were you supposed to be except happy, able to love and be loved and at peace? You have always been that person. You just got a little lost on the trail because of lies and deceit. Get up, get back on the road with your new map and move forward.
Just be yourself, embrace all the parts of yourself. Sit quietly this morning for just a minute and tell yourself, your inner child, “Your abuser is a criminal who lied to you. You are loved and you can be at peace.”